When I was in highschool I wasn't very popular, I didn't go to all of the coolest parties and I didn't have all the best clothes that every girl wants... to tell you the truth I didn't have much of anything in Highschool... the only thing i did have was..........A Best Friend.... she didn't have to be my best friend at all, she was skinny and pretty and got along well with everyone else in our class... not saying i didn't get along with them, i was just really shy and always worried about what everyone else thought. To tell you the truth..... I was the fat kid... sure they told me "no, you're not really fat" but inside i knew i was no matter how many times everyone said i wasn't.
I tried to always use the excuse that it was because i have no thyriod that i am overweight... even though it really does cause a extreme weight gain i shouldn't have used that as my excuse and not tried to change it.
Now that i am finished school and am out in the real world... i want to change who i am... sure everyone tells you that its whats on the inside that counts and if people cant see that then they are worthy of being a part of your life.... sure it maybe true but do you think they were ever on the other side of it.... its always the skinny and pretty people who tell you that so they dont know what you're going through.
Have you ever met a guy who you instantly like and you want them to be a part of your life as more than just a friend, but it never happens cause they only see whats on the outside.... sure i should believe that they dont deserve me if thats all they care about.... but for once in my life i want to be liked and not always be the one liking someone else, for once i want to people to look at me and think, "man i wish i could look like her", instead of saying, "man, i hope i never look like that, if i ever do please kill me".
Sure maybe i am asking a lot when thats what i want, but in the big picture of life... i don't think i am asking much.... so my goal here is to document my efforts and hoping to gain support so i can reach my goal..... i have set my end goal quite high but thats ok cause i do believe that someday i may reach it.
My goal: lose 100 lbs
How will I achieve it: changing my lifestyle... including my eating habits, by sleep habits, and my exercise habits.
For the last month i have started going to the gym again, so in my eyes i am on my way to my goal with that baby step, and as long as i keep making these steps i know i will reach my goal!!!
I plan on keeping you posted so stay tuned for my next adventure, whether it be a improvement or a step back
Signing off.............................Nadia :)
